I quickly went in my room and called jassim.
Jassim: " did you miss me "
I could hear the joy behind his voice.
Me; " if you were infront of me i'd kill you "
Jassim: " harsh"
Me: " stay away from mee"
Jassim:" i would love to but if you want your little brother to still trust you then be ready in 2 hours"
Me: " i cant i have school tomorrow "
Jassim: " you can manage, ill be waiting in the backside, make sure u dont come down in pyjamas again"
Me: " i hate you"
Jassim: " love u too"
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What have i done to deserve this. What did he want from me? Ive done nothing to him and all hes doing is bringing harm to me. I hate him so much and i hate my life right now. I searched my closet for something casual. I wore an oversized shirt and sweat pants. I sneak out the back door to find a black gclass parked outside, i couldnt see the inside but i was sure it was jassim.
Jassim: " r u ready "
He grined.
Me: " just drive "
Jassim: " lay hal daraja t5afen min o5oich"
Me: " mo shglik"
Jassim:" iybyin min 3yoonich el 5oof"
Me: " mita shift 3yone 3del 3shan ta7kim"
Jassim: " shftha 3adel elyom el thiher, wayhich kan priceless "
Me: " wayed iy'97ik mo? "
Jassim: " wayed "
Me: " ma3ndik banat thaneyen ta5thhum bedale "
Jassim: " fee bs intay twansen akthar "
Me: " ana mo li3ba 3shan tl3ab feeha"
Jassim: " intay ashal li3ba shiftha ib 7ayati"
He started right through my eyes while saying it. I froze for a minute to adjust his words and as i was about to slap him he held my arm tightly.
Jassim: " nuch nuch.. It Still didnt heal "
He looked at my bruise.
Jassim: " dont tryy "
He pushed my arm away. I looked out the window and i watched the city get lost in the darkness during the midnight. Everything seemed quiet except for my pumping heart and the voices in my head. Jassim turned on the radio, and " smile by mikky " was playing. Jassim was singing along.
Jassim: " smilee the worst is yet to come "
His voice was horrible. I rolled my eyes at him, and he chuckled. I turned off the radio.
Jassim: " 5arbtay jawe "
Me: " shbnsawe i7na "
Jassim: " bnro7 el ba7ar wa ra7 nrid"
Me: " how romantic ! Mg3dain lay hal 7za 3shan inro7 nitmasha"
Jassim: " 7abebte btkon hnak weya 7abebha wa el baje intay tgdren tfhmena"
Me: " uhaa ya3ne tabe 7abebtik tkon jelous, how sad, she didnt love you enough "
I shot him a look and his eyes looked away. It was like he was hurt by my words. I would have felt bad if he was a decent person, but he deserved it. Every bit of it.
He took out his alchohol bottle and took a sip. More like a jug.
Me: " slow down "
Jassim: " t5afen 3laay"
Me: " i dont want a drunk driver on the way back "
Jassim: " dont worry" he winked.
We parked 2 spaces away from a ferrari and i could see side face of a girl. She had curly blond hair. I couldnt really make out her features in the dark but i could tell she looked pretty. Jassim silently watched her from a distance and he was tightening his hand. I was scared, even more scared that jassim might go out and cause a fight.
Jassim: " wild el kalbb, ana a3lmikum"
Jassim was texting someone on his phone and he rolled his window down suddenly. The girl turned around and saw us together. Her face froze and her eyes started to tear up.
Jassim: " '97kaayy "
Me: " uhhhaaa jassim wayed t'97kk"
Jassim: " 5al iykon wa83ee akthar "
Me: " hahaa mo gdara ba6nee"
I punched his arm hardly.
Jassim:"kalbaa iy3awir"
Me:" inta kalbb"
Jassim: " mo wakita shh"
He suddenly held my hand and kissed it. Our eyes met at some point and i saw something in him that i havent seen all day. Sadness, betrayal, and emptyness. He quickly moved his eyes away before i read anything else. His hand was still holding my hand.
Me: " what was the kiss for "
Jassim: " to help ur hand heal"
He let go of my hand.
Me:" disgusting"
Jassim:" hadait iydeech haday ma9ar shay"
Me:" Kil hatha 3shan bint 5anitik, shaklik shism mihtama laha
Jassim:" kanat awal bint a7bha ba3ad ma twafat ome, sa3datne ib a93ab aw8ate "
Me:" im sorry"
I kind of felt bad for jassim. I do feel the pain thats been eating him, ive felt it when my dad passed away. We share the same type of pain and maybe thats the only thing we have in common.
He countined on drinking alchohol the entire way back and i watched him swallow every bit of pain that he felt. He was drowning i could tell and no one can save him but himself.
Jassim: " u did good today "
His voice was shaky, he was drunk.
Me: " atmana ma tdg 3lay bacherr"
Jassim:" kilna nitmana 7ag ashya2 ma tigdar ti78a8, timanay 7ag shay thane"
Me: " atmana inik ma td5alne ib mo9eeba"
Jassim: " mara7 ad5lich ib m9eeba"
Me: " el 3ada el sakara ma iychathbon"
As i was leaving his car. I heard him whisper something.
Jassim: " i will never hurt you"
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The next day, farah and i ditched first period and we hid in the bathroom. I told her about everything and even about fay.
Farah:" thgain fay kanat tkalm o5ooch"
Me: " akeed "
Farah:" ma7s fay t5oona"
Me:" ham ana , bs jassim el kalb w9al kalam 7ag faisal"
Farah: " laysh ma tgolen 7ag faisal 3an el 7afla wa ynthe kilshay, intay gam t9a3ben 3ala nafsich el omoor"
Me: " mabe a5rb 3la8atna wa ma boga shay wa ra7 iysafer. Wa adre lo i stopped doing what jassim wants, he will make everything worse"
Farah: " allah iy3enich lajoon, ma tisthlain kil hatha"
She hugged me tightly and i closed my eyes and wished that things would be better once i opened them again.
*phone vibrates*
Text message from jassim
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Jassim: ba5thich after skool
Me: wa faisal?
Jassim: lat7ateen ray7 iykon bl dewaneya.
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Jassim pulled up far away from the school parking. As i was about to go to him. Fay pulled me to the side.
Fay: " lajoon bakalmich please ni6ray"
Me: " mo wakta fay "
Fay: " madre shnu sima3tay bs ma kan 8a9dee, a7b faisal wayed wa jassim kabar el maw'9o3"
Me: " ana wa o5ooy wetha8na feech hatha yezana "
Fay "please sam7ene, ur my best friend "
Me: " i need time "
I left fay and Walked to jassim's car.
Jassim: " shtabe hathe "
Me: " hathe ismha fay wa mo shighlik"
Jassim: " o5och ma ystahalha"
Me:"now u care about my brother"
Jassim: " o5ooch 3azeez 3lay"
Me: " 3azeez lay darja t2the i5taa"
Jassim looked at me, with a soft expression.
Jassim: i would never hurt you
He said the same thing last night, which i couldnt understand. I looked at him again.
Me. " gilt nafis el shay belayl"
Jassim: " mathakar wallah "
Me: " because u were drunk "
Jassim: " shgitl ba3ad "
Me: " giltle 8e9itik inta wa 7bebetik"
His cheecks started to turn red and his eyes couldnt meet mine. He was embarassed i could tell. It was too funny.
Jassim: " ghareba ma tithakartay el bosa "
Me: " 7aywann" i punched his arm
Jassim: " a77 eeydich thgeela"
Me: " elyoom mara7 tbosne wa mara7 tamsik iydee, dont cross this line "
I drew an imaginary line with my finger seperating me and him.
Jassim: " im not good at following the rules "
Me: " ur problem "
He pulled a plaster out of his pocket and he gave it to me.
Me: " 7ag shnu"
Jassim: " eyedich"
Me: " its a little too late "
Jassim: " leydish jarathem feha "
Me: " okay dr "
I rolled my eyes at him he snatched it from me and he opened it.
Jassim: " 3a6ene eydich"
Me: " uhh "
Jassim: " mara7 abosha "
He chuckled.
" i extended my arm and he placed the plaster on top of the bruise and suddenly he kissed it ."
Me: " liarr"
I slapped his arm.
Jassim: " Bst el plaster "
He smirked.
Me : " a5r mara a9adgik"
Jassim: " inshof"
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